RIP
This has been an aweful day!!
I slept in this morning and was greeted by messy kids, doing messy things, making a messy house, in my messy bed!! (Should have rolled over and got out on the other side!!)
Went to class, stopped and picked up lunch on the way home, and headed to my Mom's to eat with her. As I walked up the sidewalk, I noticed Mom and Jac (my youngest sister) sitting on the poarch and looking alittle miserable. I asked my mom how she was feeling (she has major surgery 2 weeks ago) and asked Jac jow she was (she was home puking the day before). I got relatively good answers from both. My dad then walked out onto the porch and wouldn't make eye contact with me. Oh shit, wtf is going on? So my mom then looks over at me and says, "We are taking Gldy to the vet." I knew what that meant. Gldy was my family's dog. She has been in the family for 12 years and every memory I have has her in it. I was in a car accident in 1996 and lost alot of my memory so what I do have has been since the house was redone. We redid our house and she became a part of our family in the middle of that, so she has been with the house since it was built. She is older and has had skin problems for awhile as well as ear problems. My mom had just had enough-she was peeing blood in her urine and loosing weight fast. It was either expect to spend $2000+ on bills for fixing her up if possible or put her out of her misery. Gldy is a sheppard mix on the smaller side. After my mom told me, my dad went back into the house. My dad was histerical before they left the house today to take her for her last car ride. I knew this would be the last time I would see Gldy alive. I asked my mom if I could go with them and was quickly told no. I wanted to go with them to the vet so I could pet her while she fell asleep and I was told no. Just like that-no closure or anything. Rage and anger and fury swelled. Who the hell was she to dismiss my feelings and be so selfish. My mind ran back to when my great grandmother died. Me-Mom was on her death bed in the hospital and I wanted to bring Alexys with me when I said goodbye to her. I was told no, that it wasn't appropriate and that was that. Yet, after that my cousin who is only a couple years older than my daughter went up with no problem. I wound up at my ex husbands crying to him because he was close with the dog too plus I knew he'd understand.
But when god shuts a door he opens a window......I was able to talk to my ex about alot of things and he and I and his g/f are all going to meet and talk about alot fo stuff so we all can hopefully build a good relationship between us all.
I dont know when i will have the strenght to go to my parents house again. Some people may thing I am nuts b/c it's only a dog, but they don't understand-she was like one of us kids....she went everywhere with us even to the ice cream pollar.
So that has been my shitty day.
"Spillin tears over you, Gldy pup! I am going to miss the hell out of you!"
TTFN
B
I slept in this morning and was greeted by messy kids, doing messy things, making a messy house, in my messy bed!! (Should have rolled over and got out on the other side!!)
Went to class, stopped and picked up lunch on the way home, and headed to my Mom's to eat with her. As I walked up the sidewalk, I noticed Mom and Jac (my youngest sister) sitting on the poarch and looking alittle miserable. I asked my mom how she was feeling (she has major surgery 2 weeks ago) and asked Jac jow she was (she was home puking the day before). I got relatively good answers from both. My dad then walked out onto the porch and wouldn't make eye contact with me. Oh shit, wtf is going on? So my mom then looks over at me and says, "We are taking Gldy to the vet." I knew what that meant. Gldy was my family's dog. She has been in the family for 12 years and every memory I have has her in it. I was in a car accident in 1996 and lost alot of my memory so what I do have has been since the house was redone. We redid our house and she became a part of our family in the middle of that, so she has been with the house since it was built. She is older and has had skin problems for awhile as well as ear problems. My mom had just had enough-she was peeing blood in her urine and loosing weight fast. It was either expect to spend $2000+ on bills for fixing her up if possible or put her out of her misery. Gldy is a sheppard mix on the smaller side. After my mom told me, my dad went back into the house. My dad was histerical before they left the house today to take her for her last car ride. I knew this would be the last time I would see Gldy alive. I asked my mom if I could go with them and was quickly told no. I wanted to go with them to the vet so I could pet her while she fell asleep and I was told no. Just like that-no closure or anything. Rage and anger and fury swelled. Who the hell was she to dismiss my feelings and be so selfish. My mind ran back to when my great grandmother died. Me-Mom was on her death bed in the hospital and I wanted to bring Alexys with me when I said goodbye to her. I was told no, that it wasn't appropriate and that was that. Yet, after that my cousin who is only a couple years older than my daughter went up with no problem. I wound up at my ex husbands crying to him because he was close with the dog too plus I knew he'd understand.
But when god shuts a door he opens a window......I was able to talk to my ex about alot of things and he and I and his g/f are all going to meet and talk about alot fo stuff so we all can hopefully build a good relationship between us all.
I dont know when i will have the strenght to go to my parents house again. Some people may thing I am nuts b/c it's only a dog, but they don't understand-she was like one of us kids....she went everywhere with us even to the ice cream pollar.
So that has been my shitty day.
"Spillin tears over you, Gldy pup! I am going to miss the hell out of you!"
TTFN
B
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